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[21 Jun 2003|11:00am] SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SLEEPING LONG GOODBYE 2 comments|post comment

[17 Jun 2003|09:59pm] It's ironic that I'd die for the chance to live again Spreading my wings as they brush on tree's floating on the wind Makes no sense that I would lose it all just to gain one honest belonging Holding it so tight because it asked me to free myself from yawing These are the serious moments described as the same old agenda And it takes that special look to find the one hidden within pretenders If it's out there I'll find it, going to any length possible Deep down inside I know the feelings and their hard to kill So I will stuff it down and ask myself out loud just to make sure Is this protection for my sanity or to find someone that's pure It's never enough and there's no complete trust But how could I ever hate the opposite sex When it's fee they are all I have left This is my last resort to make the picture worth it This is my last chance to kill off this weak defensive stance Because they say in this world there is someone for everyone But I'm struggling to find someone that hasn't experienced everyone And I believe that finding the perfect one has nothing to do with perfection All I can hope for is finding salvation in a traveler walking the same direction I'm using a harp and a piano as a serenade and a warning Sending a message to corrupted searchers dedicated to exploring post comment

ILL-NoiZe [15 Jun 2003|06:22pm] -this week was tite on friday D,Para and I went to the 2nd day of "Ill-Noize" (bboy event) -it was dope got into the cricles fucked up once its kool tho -pulled some moves outtah my ass -chilled wit Dyzee and J from S.N.C -got some pointers from dyzee -got a dope ass B2du t-shirt "cuz discount" -the battles were str8 -then chilled the rest of the week Happy thanksgiving post comment

[12 Jun 2003|09:24pm] DONE WIT SKOOL TODAY -BREAK SESSION -2morow bboy event "ILL-NOIZE" -Sat.-3rd day of "Ill-noize" yea so this weekend is gonnah be hype bboy event..eveyone go....o well guess no 1 will cuz its not a LOCAL PUNK SHOW 2 bad post comment

aoischnosDGiordhgkihzkjfxhkjgdhfgkjdfg [05 Jun 2003|05:36pm] Life.. by HAPPY KIDS What is life? Life is like a big obstacle put in front of your optical to slow you down And everytime you think you gotten past it it's gonna come back around and tackle you to the damn ground What are friends? Friends are people that you think are your friends But they really your enemies, with secret indentities and disguises, to hide they true colors So just when you think you close enough to be brothers they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't lookin What is money? Money is what makes a man act funny Money is the root of all evil Money'll make them same friends come back around swearing that they was always down What is life? I'm tired of life I'm tired of backstabbing ass snakes with friendly grins I'm tired of committing so many sins Tired of always giving in when this bottle of Henny wins Tired of never having any ends Tired of having skinny friends hooked on crack and mini-thins I'm tired of this DJ playing YOUR shit when he spins Tired of not having a deal Tired of having to deal with the bullshit without grabbing the steel Tired of drowning in my sorrow Tired of having to borrow a dollar for gas to start my Monte Carlo I'm tired of motherfuckers spraying shit and dartin off I'm tired of jobs startin off at five fifty an hour then this boss wanders why I'm smartin off I'm tired of being fired everytime I fart and cough Tired of having to work as a gas station clerk for this jerk breathing down my neck driving me bezerk I'm tired of using plastic silverware Tired of working in Building Square Tired of not being a millionaire But if I had a million dollars I'd buy a damn brewery, and turn the planet into alcoholics If I had a magic wand, I'd make the world suck my dick without a condom on, while I'm on the john If I had a million bucks it wouldn't be enough, because I'd still be out robbing armored trucks If I had one wish I would ask for a big enough ass for the whole world to kiss I'm tired of being white trash, broke and always poor Tired of taking pop bottles back to the party store I'm tired of not having a phone Tired of not having a home to have one in if I did have it on Tired of not driving a BM Tired of not working at GM, tired of wanting to be him Tired of not sleeping without a Tylenol PM Tired of not performing in a packed coliseum Tired of not being on tour Tired of fucking the same blonde whore after work in the back of a Contour I'm tired of faking knots with a stack of ones Having a lack of funds and resorting back to guns Tired of being stared at I'm tired of wearing the same damn Nike Air hat Tired of stepping in clubs wearing the same pair of Lugz Tired of people saying they're tired of hearing me rap about drugs Tired of other rappers who ain't bringin half the skill as me saying they wasn't feeling me on "Nobody's As Ill As Me" I'm tired of radio stations telling fibs Tired of J-L-B saying "Where Hip-Hop Lives" But if I had a million dollars I'd buy a damn brewery, and turn the planet into alcoholics If I had a magic wand, I'd make the world suck my dick without a condom on, while I'm on the john If I had a million bucks it wouldn't be enough, because I'd still be out robbing armored trucks If I had one wish I would ask for a big enough ass for the whole world to kiss You know what I'm saying? I'm tired of all of this bullshit Telling me to be positive How'm I 'sposed to be positive when I don't see shit positive? Know what I'm sayin? I rap about shit around me, shit I see Know what I'm sayin? Right now I'm tired of everything Tired of all this player hating that's going on in my own city Can't get no airplay, you know what I'm sayin? But ey, it's cool though, you know what I'm sayin? Just fed up That's my word 2 comments|post comment

[03 Jun 2003|09:58pm] [ mood | LOST ] [ music | BABE RUTH- THE MEXICAN (BREAK BEAT) ] ALL I HAVE BEEN UP 2 WAS KEEPIN MY HEAD OUTTAH THINKING TO MUCH, ALL I'VE BEEN DOING WAS HAVING GOOD BREAK SESSIONS WIT DON DONNAH AND TRAINING FOR THE NEXT B-BOY EVENT "ILL-NOIZE" WELL IM OUT-TACTIX post comment

KILLIN A MOCKINGBIRD [27 May 2003|08:25pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | ME GETTING BEAT UP BY THE FLOOR ] FRIENDS ARE BULLSHIT, I FOUND OUT THAT THE ART OF BREAKDANCING WAS THE ONLY THING THAT NEVER TURNED AGAINST ME AND THE PEOPLE I BREAK WITH. post comment

Kill your mind [26 May 2003|09:53pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Deftone-Shove it ] Wrap-up -haven't updated this happy bug for a while -Skool almost over happy as shit -been breaking a lot helps a lot to keep myself up gottah practice harder for the next event comming up -skool lagged -afterskool went home took a nap for a hour -then cuz D came over chilled @ my temple for a while -thinking on what to do, then just ended up in his car -then we went to the dopest store S&A Surplus, crazy shit they have -then eat @ Togos by my old temple -while eatting we found something we wanted to do, WATCHED X-men 2 -then we wanted to drink up b-4 hand -D got 2 40oz. -then went str8 to O.O. to cee x-men, found out that the next show was 1030pm -was pissed then we went back to 7-11 got another 2 40oz. -then chilled in the car for 30 mins letting fluids out like a monster -then went into to watch the flick, didnt knoe what was going on laughing for no reason then we both fell asleep during all the happy meal flick -drove home cuz D didnt look okay to drive -chilled @ his house talked about wacked out shit, then ian came home talked about the FADS in hersey till like 4 in the morn -slept @ 5:oo am, had to fucking wake up for a doctor apoint. @ 7 so it was to hours of sleep [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<sat.>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Wrap-up -haven't updated this happy bug for a while -Skool almost over happy as shit -been breaking a lot helps a lot to keep myself up gottah practice harder for the next event comming up <Friday> -skool lagged -afterskool went home took a nap for a hour -then cuz D came over chilled @ my temple for a while -thinking on what to do, then just ended up in his car -then we went to the dopest store S&A Surplus, crazy shit they have -then eat @ Togos by my old temple -while eatting we found something we wanted to do, WATCHED X-men 2 -then we wanted to drink up b-4 hand -D got 2 40oz. -then went str8 to O.O. to cee x-men, found out that the next show was 1030pm -was pissed then we went back to 7-11 got another 2 40oz. -then chilled in the car for 30 mins letting fluids out like a monster -then went into to watch the flick, didnt knoe what was going on laughing for no reason then we both fell asleep during all the happy meal flick -drove home cuz D didnt look okay to drive -chilled @ his house talked about wacked out shit, then ian came home talked about the FADS in hersey till like 4 in the morn -slept @ 5:oo am, had to fucking wake up for a doctor apoint. @ 7 so it was to hours of sleep <SAT.> -ALL I HAVE TO SAY WAS MASSIVE BBQ <SUNDAY> -BBQ again -watched a dope SPIKE LEE FLICK forgot the name -played NBA STREET <today> -borded so had left over meats and held another BBQ -checked out the GENERIC 6-flags in the M.T.P. - it was wack as hell so left after one travel around the whole thing -now homewerk for 2morow which i wont do. PRESS CONTROL+ALT+DEL together to bring magic to ur life! have a bad day *Question of the day what would u define friends?????????? 1 comment|post comment

i will shit on you [16 May 2003|10:39pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | Lords Of The Underground-Chef Rocka ] wrap-up -went to skool for pers.1-3 -then went over to aidz house cuz he gave me a ride (thanks again aidz) -aidz and i went to the state boys gymnastics meet -Stevenson is crazy all i have to say, they brought down SICK routines on every event -afterwards went to find the T.L.S. crew couldnt find em to help set up and hear sound check -so i went str8 to don lee's temple -had a good break session (2 hours prolly) -then went to K.O.C. -everyone was a dick to me and non of T.L.S. backed me up thanks guys! -was pissed cuz found out that they played 1st -then chilled with the happy kids i guess ----------------------------------------------------------- 2morow another T.L.S. show @ marava fuck peace-jp post comment

DO FISH HAVE FEELINGS?????? [13 May 2003|09:11pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | SUPERNATURAL-THE LOST FREESTYLES ] *WHOA HAVEN'T UP DATED THIS FOR A WHILE* :HAPPY APPLE THINGS THAT JUST POPPED UP THIS WEEK AND LAST: -LAST SAT. WAS SECTIONALS FUCKING WAS PISSED CUZ I MISS STATE BY A POINT THE CUT OFF WAS 8.8 I GOT A 8.7 -COUGHT UP WIT HOMEWERK OVER THE WEEKEND -ELEVATED MY MIND WITH MUSIC -SINCE GYMNASTICS IS OVER TIME TO THROWIN DOWN THE B-BOY SESSIONS -SESSIONED WITH DON AND MARK AND A BUNCH OF HEADS @ THE WIESS, DIDNT HAVE A SPOT SO JUST RAIDED HALF THE COURT (DID THAT FRIDAY AND MONDAY) -GOT DOWN A LOT OF POSES AND NEW MOVES -HOPE TO HOLD DOWN A SESSION ON SAT. @ A YMCA -MATH TESTS ARE JUST FUICKING POPPIN OUTTAH NO WHERE -MIGHTY 4 VOL. 2 VIDEO COMMING IN SOON -GETTING A INNER CIRCLE HAT CUZ ALL MY OTHER BREAKING HAT RIPPPPPPPPPPEDDDDDDDD -GOT NEW MEDS LAST MONDAY -HELP T.L.S. PROMOTE :SHIT TO DO THIS WEEK: -T.L.S. CONCERTS @ KNIGHTS AND MARAVA -BREAK SESSIONS THE REST OF THE WEEK IM OUT FOR THE FISH IN THE OCEAN OF OTTOWAII THAT HAVE NO FEELINGS post comment

Special Thanks To: [07 May 2003|07:44pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Liffy-I LOVE SWEATSHOPS ] Wrap-Down -so monday and tuesday i was fucking sick -2day was my happy 1st day back to skool -felt like my lungs were gonnah fail on me again -when i came to skool notrhing changed -im on some crazy ass meds. -did some flyers for T.L.S. -im diggin the scarf that poly is rocking...? -went to practice i felt lightheaded after everything i did -have a shit load of work to make-up -* **** **** ** *** ** ***** ** **** ** *** **** *** ** **** *** **** *** *****. -yesterday my cuzin found out that some1 wants to session wit me, all i need to do now is to get better soon -thats it hope u love the hamburgers in the malls of frignigboger pick you forehead so u can see the hecks. peace-P post comment

[04 May 2003|08:16pm] I hate when it rains, cause in puddles I encounter this guy Unable to give a rebuttal but swift as the pain flood his eyes wonderin why he's a gift with no purpose A priceless one-of-a-kind piece that's worthless Grounded with no surface And when he shows one, it's a facade Cause inside he fights feelings that he was mistake by God I see his confusion and self-deception Questions of relevance and intelligence He holds an illusion of self-acceptance that he shows to those outside lookin in He's outside lookin in to his own life; lookin for strength to carry on as a pawn in this chess game of existance In his mind he wants to go on to the dawn and leave the stress that came with existance Hopin in death he'll find life Cause as he lives, he roams the dark, tryin to find light He's made his heart so hard, he doesn't even cry anymore Cause he's confronted sorrow frequently His heart's been broken frequently It's like he's lost some part of him and just haven't found it yet So in his search, he's left with nothin but questions and regret All he wants to know is how one day, he's content and the next day he's cryin cause his life isn't what he thought life meant He just wants to be happy, with his love and all But too often I get messages through telepathic calls He's askin me through a puddle what more must he endure to continue But for some reason he knows he most endure to continue When I walk past puddles, my reflection calls beggin me to answer his questions about life and his perceptions and tell him why I hate him so much And you wonder why I hate him so much? Now when I walk past puddles, my reflection calls beggin me to answer his questions about life, and his perceptions and tell him why I hate him so much Damn, I wonder why I hate him so much Why did I hate him so much? I wondered, pondered on the question What in my mind caused me to despise my reflection? I didn't know I just knew when I saw him, how I felt and hated the fact that he had to play with the cards that he was dealt He's come in contact with some ill things that can't be explained Life's extracted his energy to where the pain can't be contained So to me he comes, sheddin tears like skin Intimate with some, only the ones he calls friends If he even exists, he only exists in pain It's like his life is a myth and he's been blessed with the gift of shame, I mean From birth to love he's been betrayed He's an unknown in how to cope with that pain and dissapointment he's come to know as he's grown He feels he stands alone in this world of puddle images And he awaits the time for when, time finishes He tries to elevate thought, but he's still chillin in the basement Awaitin a rebirth of his soul as it fears it's spiritual placement God I pray you can give me a purpose or help me find it Cause on this narrow path of self-damnation, I can't find it Is it somethin I need to know, some way I need to grow to get out of this rut, God give me some self-trust Love is somethin I'm lookin for but I've found it, or have I? I wanna live but can I, or do I have to die to? I try to, have life but my life seems kinda worthless as I'm starin at this puddle God I pray that you can give me a purpose or help me find it Cause on this narrow path of self-damnation, I can't find it Is it somethin I need to know, some way I need to grow to get out of this rut, God please give me some self-trust Love is somethin I'm lookin for - thought I found it, or have I? I wanna live but can I, or do I have to die to? I try to, have life but my life seems kinda worthless as I'm starin in this puddle I sit alone in dismal silence Peering into the eyes of my reflection Wondering if his thoughts are adjacent to my own What visions of eerie savagery are passing if purity lurks in the mind of he who I mirror? Lookin at him I am disgusted He lacks beauty in all external areas and internally he seems so confused Perplexed with this conundrum of life He proceeds to function or cope, lookin at it realistically Esteem he lacks, in all areas of existance Reason unknown What is the cause of the lack of this self-acceptance? I mean it seems like he needs constant assurance Some type of ritual proof that he's even worth the oxygen he breathes A, light that shines upon him Is his living in vein? Does he have a purpose? Answer - eternally unknown 1 comment|post comment

STEAL MONEY TO GET THERE [04 May 2003|10:22am] [ music | HAPPY MUSIC ] post comment

that shit sucked [03 May 2003|10:05am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | sound of failing ] Wrap-up *ALL I HAVE TO SAY I FUCKING SUCK AT GYMNASTICS WOW!!!!! -then after the very bad meet which i did i left quick with aidz -then went back to skool to cee if the jam was still going on, then met up wit the crew went to caMage's house -ate @ s&s -drove adam home, then went to sleep I FUCKING BLOW AS A GYMNAST fuck you-jp *SCORES RATBOY-8 POLY-4 post comment

Fuck u and ur crew off apple eatting dorks!!!!!!!! [02 May 2003|12:31pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | EP? ] wrap-up yeseterday was to fucking tired to update this f'n thing, so yesterday skool sucked i got to throw paper balls in history untill my dumb ass teacher told me to stop ur acting like a middle schooler, so outtah no where i said hey shut up then did the "go out jp in the hallways and sit down" type bullshit, then afterskool went to practice for 15 mins did some tsuks on vault and left to go the the Yacob temple was great made posters for the j.v. thugs, then mrs. yacob makes up a big ass lunch which was very good, then went to the THUG J.V. MEET @ PROSPECT they owned the shit last place YAY. Now im sitting in photos class on the computers cuz everyone is on the trip to chicago didn't go cuz immah go on sunday, 2day is the JAM IN JOHN HERSEY HIGH SKOOL EVERYONE GO OR IMMAH BEAT U UP WITH MY TOOTHBRUSH AND IM PISSES THAT I CANT MAKE IT CUZ I HAVE CONFERANCE 2NITE, SO IF U GUYS KNOE WHEN TO CLAP DURING THE SONGS BUT IF I COME BACK ON TIME 2 BAD THE MANAGER IS GONNAH START THE CLAPPIN YAY....IM OUT LIKE BUTTER ON MILK WHEN U DRINK IT...GOOD LUCK T.L.S. THUGLIFES....RIPP THE PLACE UP BE HAPPY AND KILL UR BRAIN! PEACE IN-JP *QUESTION OF THE DAY WHO WON THE BATTLE FOR THE BEST IRON CHEF...I WILL ADD 1 MORE POINT IF U HAVE ME ALL THE OUTCOMES IN EVERY BATTLE. 2 comments|post comment

Is it live or is it just memorex????? [30 Apr 2003|10:53pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | A TRIBE CALLED QUEST-FIND MY WAY ] wrap-up so yesterday i was gonnah go crazy, i think things kooled down a little for me still kinda down and im sick like a duck on flinstone tablets, so 2day wanted to sleep more so i didnt drive and park my bummed out car that got scratched up yesterday (still pissed) so i let my dad drop me off wit the ol' monster truck, skool sucks not going on the photo's field-trip to the city cuz i go there like everyday so i will do my photo shots over the weekend when the true people are out to play, then went up to gymnastics practice nothing big just brushing up on my routines for fridays big meet (to me just another meet) then TYtan drove me home cuz the two BUTT-BUDDYS left me, then when i got home put on some Hi-tek Lp to elevate my mind while doing homewerk, then went to wal-mart to by posters and now im just sniffing my nose away, sorri T.L.S crew sorri couldnt make the recording session this week is bizzy for meeh. peace in-tactix *UP-COMMING EVENTS FOR THE BLIND AND POOR 2morow-J.V. Conferance Meet @ Prospect @ 6ish Friday (FUCKED UP DAY)- VARSITY CONFERANCE @ I DUNNO ASK ME LATER OR JOHN HERSEY HIGH SKOOL BAND JAM KID PRESENTALBE THE LOCAL SCENE AND MANY MORE Starts:7:00 T.L.S PLAYING 6th in the line up COST: I DUNNO JACK SOME MONEY FROM UR GRANDMA SAT.- B-boy SESSION!!! IF MY BODY IS WORKING AND IF MY WRIST AND THUMB ISNT FUCKED UP 1 comment|post comment

You are currently logged in as place_name_here. [29 Apr 2003|10:06pm] [ mood | pissed off/down/hurting ] [ music | Sole-4,5,6 ] wrap-up -i think immah go crazy soon -car got fucked up scratched deep -gymnastics is pissing me off -i wanna beat the shit outtah my teacher cuz he is a dick -started doing some poses, my thumb is still getting better wrist is still shit i need a fucking wrist support to keep it from hurting -big meet on friday, dont think immah be ready for this shit -i want fucking break, so i can beat the shit outtah my floor -i hate parking on WATERMAN -if i could, i would beat the shit outtah myself -wanna break some glass -sick of skool -sick of being yes man -sick of my fucking coach -gonnah watch j.v. conferance meet on thursday @ prospect 6ish i think -the reason why i wanna go is to cee if anyone is gonnah break - if no-1 is gonnah do it immah have to start on my own circle -thank god for my music - i need sleep only been getting 5 hours of sleep this past week ANNNNDDD -i hope all these feelings will go away soon HAVE A NICE NITE AND LET THE HAPPY BUGS BITE AND GIVE YOU SPRITE VIRUS peace-jp scores NOLAN-6 POLY-3 sorri about the error, missed the last question u got rite post comment

fucking bad parkers [29 Apr 2003|07:15pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | FUCK U PISSED OFF ONCE AGAIN ] FUCK U WHOEVER SKID MY BaCK SIDE OF MY CAR, U LEFT A FUCKING SCRATCH IF THE RE-PAINT DOESNT DO THE WORK,IMMAH HAVE TO DO THE SAME SHIT U DID TO MY CAR.... I KNOE WHO THE HELL U ARE, BITCH 1 comment|post comment

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